[ dulce bellum inexpertis ]

haloalkana @ 2009-12-15T17:55:00

2009-12-15T16:55:14Z

i'm kinda bored. i have no german tmr = no assignments yeeaysss
stole meme from kobacake

What's one of the strangest things that has ever happened to you?
... i saw a big green face/head smiling on me behind a banana trees back then when i'm still a kid. i told my dad and my bro but no one believes :[ weird. it happened on my way to a mini market together with bro and dad.
--oh! when i'm in junior high i saw a weird guy with curly hair with no clothes, gray skin (uh it looks like after you got into a mud or something dirty) , sitting down beside of a toll road on my way to Puncak on a school trip. and i told all my classmates "did you see that? there was a crazy dude with no clothes blablabla" but no one saw him :( strange.
well, the bus were at some kind of speed, but i was staring outside there's no way i can mistake a tree and a weird dude with no clothes, right?

OKAY THAT'S TWO. LOL

What kind of magazines do you read?
anything that has catchy article inside. fashion magazines, national geographic, game magazine, anything! :3
but now i rarely read magazine since i have no time to >__<;; internet already have everything haha

If you could see one band in concert right now, any band, dead or alive, which would it be?
MUSE. and COLDPLAY kthx i miss those chance on berlin because stupid college orz

What's really creepy?
when a weird unknown guy asking you to dance with him :(

Name one odd item within five feet of you.
...... i just find a kebab i bought last night... unfinished and start to give a weird smell orz

What's your current fandom/obsession/addiction?
always tales series and persona! i'm currently playing kingdom hearts and layton though :3

Where would you like to go right now if you had enough money?
.... i have so many places i want to visit! i want to go to england, alaska, japan, france, US and so many more! : 3
and one of my dream has come true ; germany! ;3;

What are you most excited for?
hmmm having lunch together with friends? lol so lame

What websites do you always visit when you go online?
twitter, LJ, pixiv, onemanga, mangafox, mb, dA, some news, and twitter. did i just say twitter? no? then twitter. lol

What was the last thing you bought?
...a daily foods. potatoes, chicken, milk, corn flakes, etc i still remember the price. 7.34 €

What's you favorite season?
winter. snow, NO BUGS, no sweat, less laundry, I LOVE WINTER FASHION! (cute mushroom hats, boots, scarf, etc..)

Does the weather affect your mood?
Yeah! my mood goes bad on a super heat but i always smiling on cold season lol (and i called myself born in tropical country haha)

What is your zodiac sign?
Aquarius

Do you want to learn another language?
YESSSS. after i'm a master in german, i want to fluent in japanese and if it's possible ; french!

5 things (not people) you can't live without?
internet, books, tablet, laptop, gadgets, games

Do you have any siblings?
24 year old bro , 13 year old sis

What's something you'd like to say to someone right now?
my shift button is hard to push >___<

What's your earliest memory?
u-uh? my memory last only for 2 hours lol. *my friends know it the best XD*

Say something to the person who tagged you:
no one tag me. i tag myself because i have nothing better to do but doing meme

12.47 - hmmmmmmm

2009-12-05T11:56:25Z

God i miss drawing and playing games SO MUCH.
it's almost 2 weeks and i haven't touch my gadgets ...... sobbbb

i haven't touch my tablet too .. it's getting cold. >__<

i miss playing MMOs. i want to continue playing Cabal and Dragonica.. i want to try playing Mabinogi ; AAA ; but my laptop isn't compatible for playing games atm.. idk why. it has problems with loading heavy images... i even can barely use photoshop or need to be very patient when watching movies... ahhhhhh /headdesk

snagging meme from pikkorina

Step One:
• Make a post (public, friendslocked, filtered...whatever you're comfortable with) to your LJ. The post should contain your list of 10 unlimited 8D holiday wishes. The wishes can be anything at all, from simple and fandom-related ("I'd love a Snape/Hermione icon that's just for me") to medium ("I wish for _____ on DVD") to really big ("All I want for Christmas is a new car/computer/house/TV.") The important thing is, make sure these wishes are things you really, truly want.

• If you wish for real life things (not fics or icons), make sure you include some sort of contact info in your post, whether it's your address or just your email address where Santa (or one of his elves) could get in touch with you.

• Also, make sure you post some version of these guidelines in your LJ, or link to this post (it'll be public) so that the holiday joy will spread.

Step Two:
• Surf around your friendslist (or friendsfriends, or just random journals) to see who has posted their list. And now here's the important part:

• If you see a wish you can grant, and it's in your heart to do so, make someone's wish come true. Sometimes someone's trash is another's treasure, and if you have a leather jacket you don't want or a gift certificate you won't use--or even know where you could get someone's dream purebred Basset Hound for free--do it.

• You needn't spend money on these wishes unless you want to. The point isn't to put people out, it's to provide everyone a chance to be someone else's holiday elf--to spread the joy. Gifts can be made anonymously or not--it's your call.

• There are no rules with this project, no guarantees, and no strings attached. Just...wish, and it might come true. Give, and you might receive. And you'll have the joy of knowing you made someone's holiday special.

1. A Good pretty, peaceful sleep without need to be awake on very cold morning and sleep too late because i need to freaking study until late (and i don't get smarter sob)

2. Playing KH on both series for NDS and PSP. I can't find exact link to download and i don't have money atm to buy games.

3. Finished all my freaking assignments, art trades, comm, etc that been delayed due school.

4. Finished all games i played.

5. Free Ticket to Indonesia. Qatar Airlines or Lufthansa yes please.

6. Pixiv Fantasia III art book.

7. Anything Persona/Tales related Doujinshis or fanbook

8. Finished the project.. yeah whatever.

9. Having my own room. i want that room in Heidenberg oh god pleaseee >_<

10. random plushies/keychains i found on amazon and playasia. sob.

ahh i just watched today's dtb2! Poor suou ; v ; she's way too adorable. and the amazing cliffhanger.... oh god next week please hurry come ; AAA ; and Heeeeiiii~~~ <333
hsdhsk i'm going to browse LJ for some Suou/Hei/Mao/Shion/July icons/banner/doujins/whatever! waahh
and Railgun... i can;t wait for the next episode! Misaka in action <3333 and the manga is so cool ; v ; i really fall for misaka. mm she's kinda annoying in anime, but she is an adorable tsuntsun in manga! wahhh now i'm gonna browsing lj for some railgun stuffs. mmm~ i want to snag icons and probably banner <3

jasfhjajkahka i miss having fun. i demand winter holidayyyyyyyyy >__<;;;;
and fack i have test on monday. whyyyyyyy ; A ; i hate monday and every tests i did on monday are failure sob

~~will back crawling to textbooks. bye uh, later~~

22.21 - hmm this isn't looking good

2009-11-26T21:21:47Z

I DON'T KNOW ANYMOAR

today's test was sooo difficult >____<;; and i was trying my best too but idk idk i have bad habit of skipping things even though i have checked the question more than 3 times lol

sob sob

the next is that so famous Goniometristuff idk what's that called in other language lol wahhh so nervousss. all i love is matrix asdjkajk why don't we learn matrix everyday?

anyway! playing more layton today since i decided to take day off tmr because of the-so-called Idul Adha. College isn't actually off haha sob
but i need to go.... i'll miss german tmr >_______<;;

random junksssss my internet was dead for few minutes and i have nothing to do :[ so here goes random layton
it's actually for a layton meme at dA. but i decided not to finish it because i'm running out of ideas lol (talk about creative sob sob)

my favorites. I CAN'T CHOOSE ONE SOB

MR POLICEMAN! (forgot his name orz)
i really love him because his faceeee! so cuuteee <33 hahaha i wish he has more.. dialogue lol

Thank you so much, Professor!

Professor! can i have that xxxxx thing?
....

(idk i told you i'm running out of ideas. i don't know what xxxxx thing. use your own imagination lol)

Of course you can, luke! this will be the prize for solving the puzzle

idk.

...i get the feeling this isn't the real professor..somehow...

well whatever. XDDD i have my head full of layton atm! wahhh ; v ;
and drawing in layton style is fun!
who said she'll be more serious in drawing?? (no, not me lol)

btw this is just me.. but after i got myself SAI, i rarely use my sketchbook anymore >___<;;

anywayysss enough of random layton junkssss haha ee sorry for the spammmm i feel like browsing LJ lately haha

16.42 - wish it snowing sooner

2009-11-24T16:14:29Z

because i love cold and snow lol /shot

✭ i'm so nervous because exam is drawing near ////;
so scared. i can do better (hopefully) in science stuff but my german -- seriously. why.
✭ this semester's german is so difficult! i wish i'm a grammar machine haha. >__<
well.. having german everyday made me sick. though, i know, this is nothing compared my language course back in indonesia. ahh where did my young spirit gone sob sob
✭ i re-read this and noticed on there is nothing like 'engineer' on the career list... maybe i should give up trying to be engineer? maybe i'm supposed to take health science after all. well.. it's not like i can change major that easily. >__<
✭ i'm trying to be serious in drawing. i only make random CG and junks... on the second though, i can't do that until i have my own 1-room.. for some reasons lol
✭ thinking of making either doujinshi or art book or maybe both. i just can't decide. and i can't decide on the fandom. it'll be around tales/persona/suikoden/ or some animu compilations but then again i can't decide. (help anyone?)
✭ IF i make doujinshi i'll ask haku_tsu to make the story. she's a better writer than me XD; ( ya mal ya? yaaaaa? )
✭ planning to finish them on winter next year since i'm planning to go home around that time (IF i can manage uni's holiday schedule, that is) what a long time deadline... lol
✭ well. trying to be more serious on both drawing and study that is. haha. noticed how lazy i am lately, i'll try to add my study hours! fight, me!
✭ i want to finish both layton series and both persona 2 series at the same time.... sob why it's so difficult. i can't decide what to play.

... sigh. i'm so sleepy but i still need to study. why it's so hard to be a student sob

7.39 - but proffessaaahh this puzzle can't be solved!

2009-11-22T06:52:51Z

worry not, luke my boy. Every puzzle has a way to be solved!

OMG i woke up at 5 AM! and it's sunday!!

i had a dream about layton, luke and some puzzles idk, it must be like a nightmare to me because i ended up awake and can't go back to sleep D8
must be an effect because i play Layton the whole night. i've been trying to finish both 1 and 2 series but somehow it's pretty hard X____x; the first game only on chap 3 and the second still on chap 2. WTFFFFFF

...well, it's just me being lazy >___< sob

anyway. luke and layton can't go out from my head D8
and i can't go back to sleep. it's still so early and dark outside I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO EEEEE
i have stomachache but my bathroom is occupied. my roomate is taking a bath ahahahaha
WHAT SHOULD I DOOOOO OMGGGG

so i made these while waiting for my roomate to finish AHAHAHA

Every puzzle has an answer!

~~..and GAMEFAQS always help you!~~

......................

~~Proffesor, what's a pedo?~~

random moe version of luke hahaa. i want to make layton version too XD;
but my roomate just finished so i rushed to bathroom lol

uahahaha IDKKKK i want to finish this gameeeeeeeeeeeeeeee XD;
i'm not used to put my doodles on lj, but.... my fc2 acting weird lately ._______.

21 NOVEMBER YAYYS

2009-11-21T07:08:55Z

HAPPY7th ETversary

♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

justwritedamnit haku_tsu eastar sapigila + nur

I LOVE YOU GUYSSSSS OMGGGGGGGG

I wish i can go homeeeeee only for this dayyyyy

16.19 - todayyy

2009-11-20T15:37:53Z

a short post before i go to sleep. ( so freaking tired today DX )
so many things happened today.. i feel so exhausted.

i can't believe it, because i was so sleepy almost all of my answer in german ARE WRONG D8
so pathetically pathetic. sigh. how long it is again after all this time i learned german? sob sob and those boys are asking me to play dota with them. ffff i know i'm a gamer but i have a lame calculation about this kind of game. i'll only there to be defeated. haha

anyway, there was a winter sale! askdjakdjakj i managed to buy a coat and new pair of boots. yayyysssssss
~~i have no idea why it's winter sale even when it's not winter yet lol~~
; v ; now i really wish it's snowing sooner haha XD and the weather is so warm and sunny. I hate it because the sunlight coming into the classroom and blocked my sight for some reasons sob. and the heat. made my mood goes bad >__< well not as bad like in summer tho. but.. yeah. i just don't like sun and heat. D8

i wish it's snowing sooonnn /shot

btw i'm trying to help my bro looking for a freelance job by forwarding the mails + notes i got from random companies/commissioners etc to him. i'm sure i have more... i can't find it DX maybe i was deleting them askjdakjak i don't understand myself. sigh.
and some companies only want moe-style lollll poor bro, but i love how moe rules the world ♥

anyways. it's almost December which means ~~new exam-term is coming up~~ it's almost Christmas and holiday season. i need to look for a job again... sigh.
and yeah, i'm going to spam some friends with a random christmas cards loll * u * haha i love sending mails for some reasons ~~ ♥ ♥
~~not because too much watching/reading tegami bachi OTL~~

16.51 - LOL

2009-11-17T16:03:28Z

LOL SO TODAY.

i hear someone shouted 'ANJIIINGGG' from the back and the only indonesian was me in the class.
....LOL what those guys are talking about in the back? lolol
because suddenly they shouted "ANJIING or PEJUUU" ROFL

and suddenly Pan greeted me with "SELAMAT SIANG" haha it's amazing how easy my own language eh? now everyone can speak in bahasa haha.

and i laughed at how those guys discussed something about 'anjing and peju' lolol since i was tired i'm too lazy to speak and just lol-ed at every words i can understand XD;

haha idk. i know the guys in the back are always talking about useless stuff, i know. but to shout it out loud like that.. LOLLL

i wrote useless stuff sorry orz. i have chemistry exam tmr and the week after sigh. and i annoyed on how there is german tmr. i'm just tired. >____<;;

btw twitter isn't a safe place to fangirl and rants anymore. i have too much irl friends on my list. aghhh but there's no way i can say 'no' when they actually see me twitting ^^;;;;
...and now everybody know how much i have no life haha ^^;;;

~~i was writing about german/italy and they asked me what i mean etc etc.. uh-- i was.. speechless ^^;;;~~

btw i want to order tegami bachi artbook >___< or maybe pixiv girls collection 2010 or maybe pixiv fantasia III but i wonder how much is the shipping fee and i wonder if they send package to europe. lol

gotta back to textbook orz bye.

15.03 - ehh

2009-11-14T14:16:51Z

i thought i can be a healthy girl again when suddenly my somewhere around my ass hurts >__<;;
i thought maybe my skin got chafed due underwear idk but it's not e________e

what now? /sigh ahhh i hate going to clinic. honestlyyyy and the skin-clinic is far far asdladajka like i have time to go there fff :(
but it;s hurt D8
idkkkk what now? another stupid infection? you've gotta be kidding me. i took bath everyday even on winter why i got another this skin-disease like i live in the jungle or something D8

i'm playing persona 2. haha. tatsuya is so cute hahaha and his brother too. ahahahah lolll
the battle system is so so so so booorrinnnggggg T___T i always get sleepy and tried to avoid battle by using contact
the result is my party's lvl are so low. died on boss battle several times DX

well anyway, i can't seem to finish my rpgs lately sob sob. i got stuck and have no mood to continue and my games are rotting in my psp sobbb

btw i'm in art slump O_______O;; how to make yourself proud of your own works guys?
i never can do it OTL;

so revi moved to my dorm this friday. i just hope he won't knock my room and beg for food.
hhh someone took the 1-room and there's nothing left haha. i wish i can get it next month.

idk. i'm kinda down lately.

19.25 - studendayyyyy

2009-11-05T18:46:44Z

went to köthennnnn for international Student Day!
i wish guys from Halle can make it! and they are in the same area with us too ;____; screw exams orz.
i can't manage to meet Dora sobbb she's busy. i know.
i hope we can meet on the next holiday! * u *

LOLL it's ironic how Köthen owns the biggest Studienkolleg and has the most foreigners BUT in the same time the resident is against them uuu that's why i don't like going to Köthen that much.. so many racism orz
and i meet that KONNICHIWA guys again haha. still not learn anything, don't you?

btw random picts. steal them from Kus' fb lolol /lazy

small place is small orz

samaannnnn danceeee <333

ALIII'S PERFOMANCE OMGGGG HE'S TOO COOL!
and LOL there's some kind of mistakes in our culture but who cares anyway? XD

there's a little girl who yell "THIS IS METAL DUDEE ROCKKKSSS!" to her friends haha. i wonder if kids these days listening to metal too? O__O;;

Turki dance
omg they're too sexy and pretyyyy orz

idk this. -___-;; i can't remember where they come from OTLLLL
but their song is good! XD;

PEDO TIMEEEEEEEEEEE YEAHHHH KIDSSSSS KIIIIDSSSSSSSSSSSS
I sat near a boy and thanks to Welton's candies i can talk to him HAHA. omg why kids are so adorableeeee hereee
<333

/shot

actually have 2194141412343 photos but i'm too lazy to put them all orz orz

waahh i love going to kothen because i can talk to many ppl ;____; the majority in my place are chinese and indonesian which make me kinda down because my german isn't improving TT A TT;

btw setia said my cheeks grow big. O_____O;; i seriously can't make it back to its original size.
how to make your cheeks smaller guys? OTL

19.31 - humph

2009-11-04T18:49:50Z

I CAN'T MAKE IT TO MJ!!!
Gahh i bet Didit and Thessa are mad at me >________<
Nicole too .__.

it's because i *unconsciously* spend a lot of time with Pan and his friends e__________e
his cooks.. ARE GOOOOODDDDD if only i have bigger stomach i'm going to eat moaaarrr D:
but 90% of his cooks are porks, so.. yeah. haha. ^^; i can't eat everything uuu

and the conversation is always.. *that* oh dude, how i wish i'm a male so i can going along well with it.

they did it. non stop offered me porks and beer hahaha. i told them i can't eat them no matter what.
haha they even offered me potatoes with *hidden* pork inside whooo nice try dude! that soup looks really suspicious so i don't touch it haha. GOD IS STILL WITH ME. YEAAAHHH.

i'm seriously almost stab Pan with his knife when i knew he really cooked pork for me haha. oh well, but i won't lose my precious friend just for a food XD

they told me about this chinese-custom too eat as fast as you can if the foods are good. because when you eat slowly it means the foods are bad. SO I EAT LIKE GODSPEED TRUST ME. but i can't defeat those guys. they are just amazing.. OTL

and it's snowing already in Berlin?? eee I ENVY YOU GUYS!
i wish it's snowing too in S-A >___< //lol i'm the only one who wants it's snowing

fuck, i'm really really TIRED. I really wish i can make it to MJ. I'm going to apologize later >__<;;
i don't want to lost more money. savings, savingggsssss. D8
~~because i bought heritage and i *want* to buy new boots and coat >___<~~

haloalkana @ 2009-10-28T18:28:00

2009-10-28T17:38:03Z

soo yeah, this Funktionsverbgefüge . i have no idea. at all. T_____T

Ersetzen die unterstrichenen Formen durch einfache Verben

Der Einsatz der Technik hatte schon im Altertum zur Folge, dass mit den wenigen zur Verfügung stehenden Mitteln ganz erstaunliche Werke entsanden.

Der Technisierungsprozess, der damals in Gang kam, ist bis heute nicht zum Stillstand gekommen.

Wir stehen am Anfang einer Epoche, die uns Hoffnungsvolle, aber auch beangstigende Perspektiven in Aussicht stellt.

Wer sich die positiven Wirkungen der Technik vor Augen führt, kommt vielleicht zu dem Schluss, dass die Technik uns überwiegend Vorteile gebracht hat.

i have no idea. sob sob

21.40 - tick tock

2009-10-25T20:54:08Z

HOLYSHIT IT'S THE END OF WEEKEND ALREADY?!
WH- WHAT DID I DO ALL DAY?

physic exam tmr ahhhhhhhhhhhh i'm going to exploooodeeeeeeeeeee and i'll have german for the next day and then it's chemistry the next day after whohoooo
i haven't finished my machine drawings assignmentsss ahhhhhhh
i wish i'm a boy so i can think more 3D and do it in GODSPEEED

my room smells so weird now. i cooked something and there's a huge smoke and now everything in our room smells like.. something X___x
glad i haven't washed my hair. at the very least my hair can survive. hoho

i can be cured haha so happy!
eeeehh the medicine is actually working! now i can sleep in peace. but still need to check up stuff etc. glad it's free now ~____~ can't afford more money.

btw the clock changed. hurrrr i can sleep one hour more. ahh snow please comeee * 3 *
and lol i know it's winter and i have a huge huge appetite during winter. LOLLLL i can't believe my mouth won't stop chewing something ahhh i'm going to gain more weight sobbbb

SHIT GOTTA BACK TO TEXTBOOKS . haha i just ranted something random because i can hardly think anymore. byeee

~~btw i misssss you dora and jezyyy bby ahhh why are you two so busyyyy your messenger is always offlineeee SOBB~~

14.48 - ahhh..

2009-10-11T13:04:52Z

everything are so yellow and a little red. not high quality photos, took it from my old cellphone because i'm too lazy to do it with my camera and copy the data with usb >__<;;
the real view is prettier. and the streets are full with falling nuts (idk the name lol) and leaves. ahaha, i love stepping on those nuts and make them crack. lol i feel like a kid D:

...and the wind is chilly, but i love it <3 it's better than sunny hot days like those summer AND no random bugs flying into my room when i open the window. yaaayy~ i can't wait for winteeeerrrrr though, it'll be pain in the ass to go to school on winter ~___~
and i want new coat /sob

why there aren't a cool fall-festival nearbyyyy sobbbb my friend went to munich for october-fest i envy himm ;____; <<loves festival lol

AHHHH
i want to draw so baaaad, i can't come out with anything proper uuuu /sobsob why nothing come out good when i have time? ;_____;
artist block sucksssssss.

btw i did it, my tales blog.
still empty and all, have no time to update it daily eeee now i won't fill my da, lj or twit with my fcking tales rants fangirl lol i want to make it in lj at first, but i'm too lazy to log out and use different name everytime i want to log in ^^;

..last, i HATE FB. because it fills with ALAYS and random guys who keep trying to add me and it's just getting more more and more populars aghhhhhh. i hate stuff when it becomes so unbearable popular for some reason. nghh.

eee i can has school tmr. sob

18.33 - oh yeaaahhh

2009-10-07T16:59:57Z

MATH EXAM VER 01 ENDED WHOOHOOO
i'm sorry for my absence everywhere ;_____; i tried my best to study and all.. haha

i hope this turned well >___< ahh i'm so nervous. i wish i have amazing calculating ability like those chinese friends ;_____; they are too amazing in math. while me need the whole 3 days to be able to solve the questions... /envyenvy

speaking of chinese friends, this chinese guy who sits near me for almost 2 weeks finally asked my name. and he asked it just because he can't pronounce my name (or maybe my family name). gotta admit my family name is too long and difficult >___<;; he usually called me with uh-- "Sie" (polite form of you) lololll why so formal? and after 3 times trying with my family name, i told him to call me with my front name haha.

I wonder if it's okay to call chinese-friends with only one name ;___; i usually called them only with 'Hong', 'Xiao' etc.. while they always called others with full name like 'Yao Hong' or 'Lv Xiao' i mean, that is way too long. righttt? XD;

uhm, about my ear-- the medicine actually works? it's not as hurt as before hmmm mmm and it looks better now (said my roomate, i can't see my own ear lol) ahahaha Gott sei dank ^ ^ but it still feels.. weird.

and wheeeeee I FINALLY PLAY TOVS YAAAAYYYYY
OH GODDDD SHORT HAIRED LUKE SO CUUUTEEE AHHHHH KYLE IS SO MOEEEEEE AND RUCAAAAAAAA SO CUTEEEE
/pantpant

i want to get asch asaap > 3 < abyss party ftw! too bad there is no guy or flynn ;____; and why yuri with farah? what a weird combo. guhh i wish there is flynn or schwann >__< i know not much about vesperia, but YURI/FLYNN IS LOVE hahaaaa

i'm going to continue this since exam endsss > 3 < afkaflafjal;aka abandoned this too long XD;

hmmm i want to make my blogspot account as my tales blog but.. idk. i feel sorry for spamming my friends here and twitter lololl
tales (esp. Abyss) is my eternal fandom so... uhhhh >____<
i need to fix my website too.
WHY THE HELL IT DOESN'T WORK ON CHROME OR SAFARI aghhhhhh T 3 T

22.32 - so

2009-10-02T20:46:48Z

SO. I finally managed to see the doctor.
the doctor said i have acute external Otitis. it has something to do with my hurt-so-bad-and-can't-hear-clearly-right-ear.
the doctor said i'll be fine as long as i drink antibiotics and so damned eardrop.

which i found those stuffs are FREAKING EXPENSIVE.
oh insuranceee please give me back my money asaaapp ; A ;

i'm glad my roomate is there and help me out. uuu i feel guilty with this sickness.

i hope this will heal asap, i mean.. i can't hear clearly what ppl said and i need to go "Huh?? can you repeat that?" every time ppl speak to me and i bet everyone sick with talking to me :|
there's time when i can hear nicely, but still... sobb

uhmm and today a random guys pointed at me and my friends when we were walking home. uh-- stop pointing at me like you never seen south-east-asian. seriouslyyy and no, i'm not from vietnam or kampuchea :| why my country isn't popular sob.
and i still not used to it on how ppl see me (and some friends maybe) like -it's-so-unusual-thing ;___; guh. specially kids. i had some kids staring at me with their so determined eyes. sometimes it's scaryyyy.

btwww it's batik day! do you wear batik everyoneee?

HOLY SHIT. look what pixiv has done to my style ;___;
and i can't make anything but DOOODLEEE lately sobbbbbb.

anyway, it's fall already and cold. take a good care everyone!

22.26 - nnnoononononoooes

2009-10-02T20:32:14Z

AAHH WHY AM I SO LATE? I SHOULD CHECK MY LJ MORE OFTEN OTLLLLL;

SO.
HAPPY LATE BIRTHDAYYYYYYY
asatosei
and
exile_kid !!!!

I AM SORRY IT'S SOO LAAATEEEE T A T;;
just let me know if you both want some giftart, requeeest meeeeee <333

though, it'll be kind of doodledmess orz sorry.

and

HAPPY BIRTHDAYYYY
haku_tsu and nur bbyyyyyyy
ILUUUUUU <3333
sorry for the late cardsssss. i have bad habit that everyone know orzzzz

why so many ppl born around end of september and october?? XDD;

13.55 - enough is enough

2009-09-27T12:07:50Z

I EAT TOO MUCH OF THESE AND I GAINED MORE WEEIGHHTTT OTL OTL
Germany, what's with your sweets and chocolates? they are too delicious in my mouth ; A ;

aahaha i finally play RADIANT MYTHOLOGY 2!!
sadly it's japanese, i don't understand the story ahaha ^^;; have some problems with quests too, but oh well.
seeing luke solves everything ahahahaa

RM 1 is not as cool as RM 2, i'm not too eager to play it. idk. = A = and kanono looked like she have no souls, she is cuter in RM 2 XD;

*cough* no, i only play during weekend. and now i have SO1 and KH 358/2 days to finish o A o college, you succckssssss

guhhh i have presentasions next week, not to mention several tests ; A ; i got a bad score on my last grammar's test. ahhh why there is grammar in this world? ppl need to learn bahasa indonesia so they don't use grammar anymore sob
college's been pretty hectic and they RUSHED everything because this semester is short. cool. i wish this semester ends sooner too, i want my holiday and need to work because i want money ; A ;

12.13 lalalala

2009-09-18T10:31:05Z

WEEKENDDDDDDDD
but sadly i have to go to berlin, so bye internet OTL
will leave with night train, and tbh i still don't know where will i sleep. whoopss amazing.

so here i said it earlier;
HAPPY IED AL-FITR / IED MUBARAK <3
for everyone who celebrates!

and enjoy your holiday
...because i don't have holiday here sobbb

~~mmm i can't wait for lebaran to come because i'll get free foods lol jk~~

pretty much busy latelyyyy OTL OTL i want some free time to do everything i want ;___;
~~and i want a white psp i saw in e-bay.~~

i'm usually the first to come to class, and got pretty much shocked today because the new students are all earlier than me.
i hate that chinese guy for taking my favorite seat in classroom btw. I SWEAR I'LL COME EARLIER BEFORE YOU ON MONDAY. HMPH.

20.53 - nonsense

2009-09-10T19:13:51Z

I know this is nothing important and i just looking a reason to online longer because german homeworks kills.
~~though i know i update my twitter like a crazy madman~~

the package from Hamburg has arrivedddd. TEH BOTOL SOSROOOOO *molest* ahh the taste is irreplaceable.

makan apa aja, minumnya teh botol sosro

and banana chips kampoengan! how i love this so muchh!! too bad the pisang sale has sold out... i want to eat that badly ; v ; and they don't sell abon... i'm running out of abon mom sent to me a few months ago ;v;

and uh, sorry E.T i can't send lebaran cards T____T. i'm running out of money for some reasons.. ~~no, not to buy these~~

me and my roomate just cleaned our room! ^__^; though she did 60% of work because there are spiders and their webs on every corner of our room which made me freak out since i just can't stand those stuff that has more than 4 legs.. and categorized not as an animal ^^;;
how come those things are there, i mean.. i clean the room once in a week.. but those things are just.. there T___T;; man, i freak out just to find A LOT of them are here in my room...

btw, there is a festival where ppl wear a medieval clothes in Rathaus! so cuutee > w < i'm addicted to old medieval style, they even has old style stores, a blacksmith!!, a weapon seller, a medieval-toystore, a dwarf/gnome stuff, ahh so interestingggg.
they even greet the customers like those in medieval movies!
welton took all photos, maybe i'll ask him to send them to me^^

..........and shit, i wanna draw badly ;v;

16.22 - O___O;

2009-09-04T14:45:47Z

AHHHH 3 DAYS TO COLLEGE.
and all i do is playing MMOs, this is really wrong.

I played back Fiesta recently and didit introduced me with Dragonica which i found reallly cuutee * w *
BUT DUDEE, unless my laptop is compatible enough i won't get my hands to second job change. because it always lagging on mobs and when i went rampage and do so many combos ; ___ ; the result is death and lost so many EXPs OTL

i wonder if defragment will help, i've been wondering what parts of the systems/programs that caused my laptop this horrible. i still can use cs 2 perfectly fine back then when i'm still in indo, i'm not using much laptop when i'm still in berlin. Means, this laptop started get horrible when i got my hands on 24/7 fast internet here = A =a

my antivirus works just fine, it's 2009 kaspersky and fully updated since my laptop always on almost 24/7.

..i've been thinking of re-formatting my laptop because i already copied most of importand datas on my ex-HD.. but that's mostly my last option.
and i wonder if always 'terminating' programs are ok, since i always terminated my MMOs after play and firefox from task manager XD;

ahhhh what should i doo? O__O;; i know no experts and i wish things are that easy like in my homeland.. sob. i have this bad habit of trying to fix stuff but always make it worse in the end XD;

PS; my right ear still hurts. i can't use headphones so no loud neverending musics of akiko shikata and supercell XD;
if this not getting better until a week i'll go see doctor D:<
tbh there's a wound in my right ear, i remember its bleed back then ( can't remember when), but i wonder why it's hurt recently around 2 - 3 days ago..until now? maybe using too many headphones triggered it = A =; ~~started to use headphones again since my roomate is back.~~

and ahhh i need to meet hm about my 1-room. i doubt i'll get the same building. maybe in F or the worse case, the old senpai's room.
i can't imagine i need to work over the contract and more papers to sign, inform about new internet and address change. - that is one new hell. OTL

12.49 - lol

2009-08-26T23:22:14Z

IT'S ALMOST THE END OF AUGUSTTTT
WHY - WHAT HAVE I DONE FOR THE ENTIRE AUGUST?

It seems my summer just go away without me even do anything T A T

and since it's fasting month, i have no energy to go outside. The heat keeps killing me and i'm no mood to walk in the heat ~~because of sunburn ruined my skin~~. Now i'm too lazy to go to bank and the nearby atm ~~is on station which took a minimum 30 mins of walking and i'm too lazy to wait for a bus and i have no money to buy tickets lol~~ (in the end, i am just lazy to go outside when it's hot XD) which mean i'm broke until i have more energy to walk XD;

i use my pretty and shiny card for every little thing i buy at grocery store. which is kinda pathetic :( but that is what a technology for right? for convenience in use!

i can't imagine what will happen once College start.
and i'll go all-out for study on the beginning of semester now. i can't let the same mistakes happen again DX
..hope i can do that.

..which means, i gotta finished these stuffs before it starts bugging me later and disturb my study.
- finished some games ; smt gin's path (i'm seriously lazy, it has no cool mag-attacker TT A TT and amane's SPD suck like that) , Valkyrie Profile (i'm trying to get all of the ending. hurrr), Play layton 2, continue avalon code and toi because i'm lazyyy

- marathoning shana, tokyo underground, toradora, tokyo majin gakuen and some ghibli animu

... i want to say finished arts i owed to friends, but from the looks it's impossible. welcoming artist block, i have no mood in drawing anymore (glad i finish commission already XD;) and my style keep changing and unstable and my drawing looks sucks lately. i feel like deleting my gallery, but a certain someone told i shouldn't escape from my own lameness. sob.
~~and yeah, i still tried to be manly and badass. i know it'll fail TT A TT~~
and my laptop is so pathetic. i tried to use SAI but i don't really like it for coloring, i still love photoshop for every single thing but lineart.
but my laptop goes lagging and make me wanna cry.

..now i dunno which should i spend my saving money to - psp, laptop, or a ticket to go home next year OTL OTL

- continue or try to finish random german history books. why did i borrow this book from the first plaaaceee
and this wizard of oz book. i'm still halfway of it and lazy TT A TT

- I HOPE I CAN GET MY 1-PERSON -ROOM OR WHATEVER IT'S CALLED.
i don't like having a roomate that actually sleep with you in the same room DX; it feels weird having someone snuck on your every single private stuff.

my roomate is away for a holiday now, and it's actually feels good living aloneeeee. i'm a loner just like that.

- and er-- i'll still doing random things once college starts every weekend > 3 < i can't help but online 24/7 every friday and

anyone read manga called Bloody Monday? it's my current fandom because it's cool.
too bad that every chapter is so short like air gear. but glad that it's updated daily, unlike air gear T A T

btw, anyone know what animu has bloody and pretty much killing like baccano or higurashi?
not umineko, i already followed the series. i just want to see blood XD;

and i know fasting supposed to make you skinnier, but i'm gaining weight from the looks of it. i should stop cooking something that actually tastes good everyday TT A TT

15.21 - some rants blah

2009-08-09T13:44:09Z

thanks for you advices everyoneee *hughug*
i better start moving forward and solve the problems for my own sake.

to think that mental & physic condition is somewhat causes my artist block orz
feel sorry for some friends.orz

...i need some rests. i know but i just can't help it doing nothing on my bed and rest DX DX
....since i'm too tired to read my random thick history (why did i borrow this book anyway? lol) book and to take a peek on dictionary, i continue to play TOI since i abandoned it for xxxxxxxx days hurrr.

*had an urge to play after read the manga which is PATHETICALLY PATHETIC*

let's just say since my head is dizzy i'll make it short.
i hate the manga :

- STORYLINE CHANGED SO BAD WTF. it looks like rushed or something. so not pro. even TOS and TOA can be better :(
- Ruca is not moe. even the 'trying to be mature' version of Ruca in the game still so moe.
the Ruca in manga is... mature. well, kinda cute in the beginning but for the last few chapters.. DX
- WHERE DID EVERYONE GO? No Sian and Albert. i'm glad they still have Hasta though......
but hey it's not like Sian and Albert aren't important! DX
- OOC Hermana. Hermana should act more cuter. But she in manga is sooo mature ughhhh. sometimes it's so annoying.
- what, SPADA WITHOUT A HAT. WTF. SO LAME.
- everyone don't seem to tease Ruca a lot bhuuuu :(

some stuffs i like about the manga ;
- blushed ricardo on the few last chapter so cuteee <3
- many Spada/Ruca ahahaha i'm happy. there's a scene where Spada pat Ruca's head awwwwww~~

...only two. rofl. wtf.

and i still stuck to beat the last boss lol. i still don't have the hi ougi for ange and she's my main party haha smart. need more level-up because i always try to avoid enemies and still survive.
and after i finish this game i better finish hearts too > w <

lol i know i know, i'm playing on my bed and i even type on my bed. rofl. i always sleep earlier too.
sick on summer sounds so wrong don't you think?

~~i drink a lot of multivitamin drink and vitamin C lately. now my stomach hurts because i drink too much.~~ It's an effort to make my health better so shut up XD

22.20 - hmph

2009-07-30T20:33:24Z

and so i finished my PH meme.
I got lazy on some panels because ARTIST BLOCK bothered me. no really, i have no idea to draw.

e___e

lol i love doing meme. i just found some fandoms meme and probably will fill them later 8DD

*what happened to my untouched sketchesssss orz*

btw umineko eps 5.
I got annoyed. -____-;;
is it the same like in the game? suddenly they have a tea party hmppmhhhhh D:<
it's just too sudden. I thought it will be something and why maria is the one who send letter? i thought it gonna be Buttler or jessica or other guy DD:

but i love love love the OP song so much ; v ; i listening to it over and over. lolol i love the game's op too~ > w <
too bad i don't play the game because i can't read kanjis. The same goes with higurashi. and i just downloaded the DS version yesterday
(but still on SMT fffff)
ahhh i'm going to search more Akiko Shirataaaaa.

currently pimping on Kanoooon~~~ ahh why so bishieeee <333

wth with firefox??
everytime i watched something with my firefox it goes lagging D: i watched using google chrome now. at the very least it won't get lagging in the middle of the way -___-;;

16.21 - hungryyy anddd

2009-07-28T14:25:03Z

I SERIOUSLY IN COOKING MOOD TODAAAAY.
I remember i still had chicken on my refrigerator so i cook the sauce.
and just when i want to cook my chicken fillet it..is..

...scary. i don't want to remember.

BUT IT'S EXPIRED. EXPIRED!! and i haven't touched a single chicken. TT v TT

so all my meats are gone in a single minute. There are only fruits and fish inside my refrigerator so i should eat fruits until i want to go shopping. errr... i just went to groceries today and i thought - oh i still have chicken so i won't buy meat.

...clever. who knows it's already expired. i should check my refrigerator more often ; v ;

sobbbbb

i'm going starving again today.